Senior Year Celebrations by Mardly

Senior Year Celebrations by Mardly - December 2016 Scholarship Essay

Have you ever suffered from crippling self doubt? Do you ever just wake up in the morning sweating profusely,shaking from anxiety of not succeeding in life? Well that was me all High School. I feared constantly that my procrastinating ways and my self doubt of not being smart enough would lead me into a life of failure,drug abuse and death. I know what you're thinking, woah a little too dark! However, in order for me to describe a school accomplishment that I'm most proud of, I have to talk about how I overcame my deepest and darkest fear.
Freshmen year of High School hit me like a truck!BAM!The truck came with a sign that said, "time to get your priorities in check if you want to get into the best colleges and make mom and dad proud". Putting pressure on myself made me become doubtful of my academic abilities. I would see the real smart kids, getting into advanced placement classes and winning honorary awards; and, there I was in basic classes winning about as much as a goldfish. When it came to failing a test, it was as if me, myself, and I were in a boxing ring going toe to toe to toe and none of us would win. I wanted to be so smart and have my parents gloat about me to all their friends in awe of all my accomplishments; but, here we were senior year making average grades (some honor roll) but no special academic accomplishments.
Better late than never, I had a long talk with myself and realized that I needed to stop wanting to be someone else and focus on how to be a better improved me. I started to get better sleep, eating healthier,exercising, and the key one: stop procrastinating.
After that self-talk with myself, I started living a self-effacing life that lead to me winning three scholarships!!! I have never been so proud of myself, and guess whom were even more proud, my parents. I put in the time and I saw amazing results in my grades and in myself. Believing in yourself brings so much strength and success. Those scholarships helped me pay for 90% of my first semester at my local community college. Winning those scholarships, helped prove to me that I am in fact smart, I just needed to believe in my abilities. Finally, by winning these scholarships and getting accepted to two universities and one community college, shattered my fear of failing in life. I can only fail in life if I let myself fail; but, if I stay strong and live by the words of my favorite disney character, "just keep swimming", I will be succeeding with flying colors!